Wow. It’s been more than a month since I made any posts here. Time flies, I guess. Mostly I’ve just been busy and preoccupied, but also I just haven’t felt like I had anything to post. Which really isn’t exactly true. I think I’ve been a little depressed lately. Blame the season. Blame my piss-poor attitude. Blame my sucky life. Nah. Piss-poor attitude is the real culprit. But, I’m over it, so it seems I need to make an update here and then just get on with it.
So finances, of course, are still a concern. I’ve got it somewhat under control at the moment, but I do want to find a steadier source of additional income for at least a few months. I’ve got some leads I’ll be following up on this week. Less worrying about making all the bills would certainly go a long way toward lightening my mood and brightening up my piss-poor attitude. (Have I mentioned that I’ve had a piss-poor attitude lately? Sorry. I promise that’s the last time I say it.)
My living situation is another cause for update. Don’t get excited, though – the moochers (or live-ins, as I like to call them) are still here. In fact, for a while I had an extra moocher. My brother (who contributes nothing toward our living expenses and doesn’t even take care of his own kids) invited our alcoholic uncle to live with us. See, my uncle has been living in Florida for 28 years and recently spent a few weeks in the hospital. All of his friends have either died or moved away, so his hospital stay seems to have scared him. I don’t think he’s ever really been alone. He said he had quit drinking, so my brilliant brother decided to play the hero and offer him a place to live. Well, my uncle took that offer and we scavenged up money to help him pay for a ticket home. He lived with us for one week before my brother decided he’d had enough and kicked him out. My brother told him it was because he was drinking again (which is partially true), but I think the final straw for my brother was just that he was sick of having him constantly around. And he tried to take the remote control and change the channel while my brother was watching tv. Luckily another uncle was willing to take him in. I did drive him around to some appointments, helped him find a job, and all that. Now he just needs to stay off the sauce enough to keep the job.
What else? Well, my grandmother died last weekend. Yes, it is sad, but honestly she had been in the hospital for several weeks, and before that had been in a nursing home for several years (and on dialysis for 10 years). Her quality of life had really deteriorated, and I do believe she’s in a much better place now. But this sad event has managed to cause a rift in my mother’s family. She and her four brothers are now not speaking to her four sisters because the four sisters were being quite catty and greedy and bitchy…and just downright sneaky. It would be nice if such family tragedies could bring people together, but it often seems to just tear people apart. At least that’s how it goes in my experience.
This reminder that life is fleeting and all that has gotten me off my butt to make some effort to maintain my relationships. I have made it a point to reconnect with my mom, my other grandmother, and my good friend (who is twice my age and in poor health). I am trying to get fired up about my job again. For a while there I was just so disinterested in everything. Ugh.
Other than that, things are mostly the same. I have taken up cooking and baking again. I am itching to re-read my Austen novels and the HP books but work is picking up right now and I probably won’t have time for a while. My nephew is now officially a {gasp!} teenager as his birthday was earlier this month. The holidays are coming, so like most people I am trying to balance various family responsibilities. But more on that another time.
There. See, you didn’t miss much. I must be more faithful about posting, even when I have nothing much to say. After all, that’s the whole reason I have this blog.
